whereeverythingcomesintoone

I feel real tired now...my eyes are heavy...i can feel it...am i stressed out so that's why i have insomnia...??
if u have been reading my previous blog...u will remember how much im scared of insomnia...OMG!!
Dunno what im stressing about...at least im not knowing it consciously...
So em...give my brain some exercise in writing blog lo...what else can do?? I have been listening to the same playlist for more than an hour now...and dun dare to get back on bed...cox if i force myself to sleep then in the end im the one that suffer also lo....
so what song is in my playlist...total there are 18 songs..
*Everytime-Bryan Adams
*Flying Without Wings-Westlife
*If I Let You Go- Westlife
*Shall We Talk- Eason Chen
*The End Of The World- A Girl(dunno who)
*Everytime-Bryan Adams
*Flying Without Wings-Westlife
*Yue Ding-Guang Liang
*If I Let You Go- Westlife
*Shall We Talk- Eason Chen
*dunno what song name by TANK
*The End Of The World- A Girl(dunno who)
*Yong Qi- Fish Leong
*Everytime-Bryan Adams
*Flying Without Wings-Westlife
*If I Let You Go- Westlife
*Shall We Talk- Eason Chen
*The End Of The World- A Girl(dunno who)

Yes...there are repetition in my playlist...cox...haha..the reason is easy..i like this songs lo....

Actually different songs gives me different feeling...regarding on what am I facing in the life when im listening to the song...

For example...   Penny Tai - 你要的爱....this song give me scared feeling cox something happen in school and after that incident i back home and  I watch the movie "Meteor Garden" (this is one of the song for this movie..) So, somehow i link the incident to this song...and whenever i listen to this song...i will think of that incident and then my heart will feel scared.....but i guess the fear have decrease lo...after so many years....click play and  ENJOY my fear...haha....

Tears are really what I having in my eyes...not drops of tears just watery eyes....
I only have one thing in my mind now which is the problem that we did not see that lie beneath the most inner part of a person...it is invisible but it is always there...always there,and we din know it all this time....it could be in their brain, in their body, in their heart, in their mind, in their soul...One of common thing in all of this is that we cannot see it until it is brought to surface...brought out into their words, their action, and even in their tears.. Some of us are just too lazy to find out the truth and just believe on what we see...but i tell you this, that what we see, what we hear, and what we think we know might not be what really is happening...


Consider yourself lucky if your were to able to see what lies beneath...cox not everyone get to see the whole truth...and not everyone are lucky enough to learn form other people's story..some of us might need to experience it ourselves to be able to learn.

I believe that everything happened for a reason, and everything come across another thing is because of fate/coincidence but have deeper reason for such a fate/coincidence that happen onto each and everyone of us... If at this moment you  think that you are having the worst moment in your life...dun give up on yourself cox u haven see the real worst moment in a person's life...

I here wish all of you that read my post a very happy day and I truly hope that you will be able to settle every obstacle that come across your life...no matter how hard it is, dun give and dun disappoint people that care most for you...

din have much thought over the past few week...
been busy with assignment, been busy with slide, been busy with presentation...
and this week is cognitive week...so it will be all about brain, thinking(as if we are not already have enough thinking and now we have to think why we think)
but still i will just thinking about holidays and thinking about holidays trip...
planning of trip..
planning of enjoyment...
human likes to enjoy rather than hardship..that is why we created so many machines.
car: so that we wont have to walk(tiring)
tv: so we can enjoy at home without going out(tiring)
air-cond: so that we can enjoy the coolness
this are just the few example of how human make their life better, more enjoyable...
so cant blame a teenager like me to think about vacation while the final is yet to come...

each time i post a blog..i will think of a title. Then i will start from the title itself...writing everything i can think of related to that particular title...but today i dun have a title for this post...
one is reason is that im not thinking much before writing...its contradict though, cox u may say if im not thinking then how come i can come up with so much words...haha...i never really fully understand myself something...maybe im just being control by emotion/ brain and not me that are fully functioning...
meaning there is something else that is guiding my behavior/ thoughts/ action and etc...maybe living in the world is just as an empty soul...just following the flow..following the flow of the ever changing surrounding...in chinese saying..." those that are in the situation does not aware but those that are not in the situation are the one that knows it all"
Perhaps life is just about not being aware of it...everything happens for a reason..YES! but we do not noe wat is the reason..cox we are not aware...unable to aware...or maybe refuse to aware...running away?? probably... you dunno i also dunno...
watever critical thinking..is just wat we presume...we guess logically...we think but we never know until it happens...
SO....to plan or not to plan?? to be or not be?? to think or not to think??
when i play the game "The Sims". it always occur to my mind that maybe we human are characters in the "The Sims"....And the player(us) are playing GOD...why will we noe to find food when we feel hungry....maybe GOD have a big screen indicating the hunger level and thus pointed us to look for food in the kitchen... because everything happens for a reason right?? Maybe this is the reason....who knows...

i promise of a second part for my post title sharing...so now here is it...
and i am blank..haha...
i guess wat im doin now is sharing...blogging is actually a good way to share... to share our thought and feelings...everyone can do it but not everyone willing to do or are hardworking enuf to put down thoughts into words...
i really admirer those 1000 or 2000 years ago's people that have written all their words and ideas into poems and books for people like us to continue to know and for us to grow to be better...this is the ultimate kind of sharing...share for the goodness of younger generation...
maybe all they wanted was fame...maybe all they wanted was people to continue to know their names after a few decade...but wat is share is shared...no one can deny this...we shud thank them for all the wonderful words they have left for us...thank you..
and to my dearest readers...thank you for reading my writing...